I ♥ Music

Tuesday, December 29, 2009,7:26 AM

i'm happy. :)

went to nally's home with LF, SC n lu yday morning. it was great, jus talking n all, n i miss them! hahaha thanks nally for yr chocolates n shortbread, n yr mom for e dian xin! won't be seeing them for quite long, maybe after end of next sem, jun-jul. bye nally, will miss u when u head bk for glasgow!

for the second time last sat, i went to IMH. because it was a x'mas party for them, there was games and singing. and food! i ended up spending some time in e kitchen, with how hwe (can't rmbr hw to spell his name, hehe), serving e food that was 2 drumsticks n a piece of cake, n later washing n clearing up. went out to join them later, when they were singing carols. looking around, u wld think that most of them aren't watching n listening, or singing. i wld say tt some of them are in their own world. talked to e resident who sat beside me for a while; he's quite old n it was more difficult because he was less coherent. i couldn't understand some of what he was saying, but my guess is that it came from his imagination, not what had been real.

i was quite disappointed, because e resident whom i did a christmas hat for the week before, didn't show. don't know where he is, but i hope he's doing well. there was another resident who was walking around, not talking to anyone. he walked in front of 2 of our volunteers, n just looked beyond them, but there was nothing behind. i wonder if this is bcos of their hallucinations.

but i'm happy to see a few of them doing much better. :) there's a resident (whose name i can't mention bcos of e confidentality agreement we signed) who came over n said goodbye, bcos he was going bk to his ward. n later when we were bringing some chairs bk to the ward, he walked towards me n reached out for e chairs i was carrying, to carry it bk himself. he smiled, n i was n am dazzled by it. n later when he was looking in my direction, i waved goodbye since of e mask we had to wear, he couldn't see me smile bk. e feeling's very pleasant, like he were a really close friend, n there was alot of warmth in it. i hope i'll see him again during our next visit. its a little strange that he doesn't appear ill like many of e residents do, but almost like one of us, healthy n in a clear state of mind.

Saturday, December 26, 2009,8:02 AM

merry x'mas every one! :)

enjoyed being glued to my tv last night n early this morning. watched e movie The Family Stone, n later, chU's special episode of Absolute bf. the story's abt a robot created to later have human feelings, n a lady falling in love. but they couldn't be together in e end, cos he's not a human, can't grow old n all that. the story's really touching, n heartwarming too.

i love x'mas movies!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009,12:57 PM

very pleased. :) was worried n anxious abt my sem1 results jus over an hour ago. n couldn't login to webvpn for over an hour. got them through sms. n am v happy n surprised.

no, i didn't get any As, instead got all Bs, or more precisely for the 5 modules there were graded, four B+ and one B-. i thought will get Cs and Es, bcos e paper for accounting was esp difficult. relieved. :) oh, i got a CAP of 3.8 (out of 5), n i think i'm v lucky le, considering there was quite a bit of last min work.

will work towards 4 next sem, that'll be my goal! hope everyone's happy aft getting their results, n al d best for e coming new sem!

Sunday, December 20, 2009,7:37 AM

sunday's here. :)

went to imh yday, n gt to know some of e volunteers there, n oso 2 of e patients. there aren't many who came yday, abt 11 or so, n they're nice people. some r students, but in their third year, n others r working already. n a few of them have done this for a very long time, since the time they were in uni.

didn't really know how to approach e patients at first. (we had adopted a male ward for schizophrenic patients, n visit them once per week.) between e volunteers n e patients, they're quite close, n know each other by name. its not difficult to approach them n say hi, what's yr name, what're u doing, n things like that. with their medication, they're normal people, like any one of us. but for them, they're confined to their wards, they can't go out to have fun like we do, n some of them don't have family or don't get visits from their family.

some of them are in their 30s to 40s already. n i believe that they'd led simple lives like us, in e past. maybe it was genetics, or something had triggered it, i don't know. it would be a good thing to chat with them n be their friend, so that they won't be as lonely.

it may come as a shock to see them behaving a little strangely. depending on their condition, their speech may not be understandable. n sometimes when they talk abt who they are, it may not be real, perhaps out of their imagination. its sad to know that there's no cure for the illness itself, only treatment to improve their conditions.

we'll be having a x'mas party next sat, e 26th. there'll be food n presents for them, a performance by a few of e volunteers; i hope we can bring them some joy. :))

Friday, December 18, 2009,4:28 PM

sent my x'mas cards finally. :) paid n collected a book for the 'Changing Landscapes of Sg' module, n went to e library again. e content is pretty heavy; i haven't managed to sit down properly n read it yet, oni read a bit. its a little of human geog, offered by dept of geography, n i jus found tt e exam qns are essays, 25m. maybe essays r nt so bad afterall, i hope. :) bcos e answers r less definite dan mcqs. hope i can fit it into my timetable for next sem!

finished my 1st canto hk drama, n almost through the next! hahaha nice dramas, but smtimes intense. these r the 2 dramas: E.U. and A Great Way to Care. (eu stands for emergency unit). can't understand much of canto, but could catch e content from e chinese subtitles. :))

will be gng to IMH tmr. :) n i hope every sat after that, too. its quite far, b/w ang mo kio n hougang, or e sengkang mrt. looking forward to it, but a little scared too.

Sunday, December 13, 2009,11:40 AM

i've submitted e online form to volunteer @ IMH. :) considered n re-considered. hesitated for quite long, bcos i was afraid. tt i can't commit to it during e semester. tt i'll be alone, at least at first. but i'm sure will slowly get to know all e other volunteers there, n they're probably nice people. no worries there.

at e back of my mind, i've been thinking.. what if they don't like me? things like that. but i hope i'll do my best once i begin, n hope too that i can bring some joy into their lives. i don't know how much i'll rly be able to do, bcos at most its once a wk, or per fortnight. would want it to be more frequent if i have e time. i hope there'll be sm flexibility towards that.

i think it'll be a fulfilling experience, n i hope it'll be permanent in my life if i'm able. :) will be shopping for xmas presents tml with shima at jp! then will be going changi bcos nallytan's coming bk tml!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009,8:08 AM

have been pondering abt being a volunteer. still nt too sure, bcos have a lot of doubts abt my ability... i had wanted to start something meaningful, n volunteering at imh appealed most, among a few. talking to e patients, playing with them n bringing them a little happiness, that's what i would like to do. i would like to, but i dont know if i can commit long-term, given that i'm nt doing particularly well academically.

but if i do decide to do it, it'll be permanent. for them n for myself, i don't want it to be just temporary, be someone who won't care abt them anymore, n leave as i wish. its important to me, as well, that with those whom i get to know, they'll be friends for life.

i'd looked at several organisations, the HCA (which cares for the terminally ill), the Autism Association, n SPD (which cares for the physically diabled). i don't think i'm ready for the first two, bcos i couldn't bear it seeing others suffer, that was what i had seen with my grandfather. i'll probably deny it if u ask, but yup, i'll cry when e time comes for someone to leave.

with school still central n of primary importance, i simply don't know if i can manage doing both well at e same time. what if i don't, or can't?

Monday, December 7, 2009,8:35 AM

e giant louis vuitton bag:) haha! n our whisper 'happy it's here!' pledge for e women in Laos.

Sunday, December 6, 2009,7:54 AM

lunch, movie n dessert at orchard cineleisure, ngee ann city, n ion orchard! :) got another photo coming, tt we took with a gigantic louis vuitton bag!

Saturday, December 5, 2009,11:25 PM

went to cineleisure orchard today, with my sec 2 friends, sarah, hui en n baoyin/waner. :) we watched twilight- New Moon. V nice show, n really enjoyed it a lot. made me cry several times in tt 2 hrs.

We went window shopping b4 e movie n aft we had our lunch, at food republic. e food there v ex! Haha. nt a fan of shopping, but since we had nothing to do, we did. a lot of cute cute things :) haha v nice! But buy oso no use. :) didn't buy anything in e end, just look look here, look look there.

haven't seen them for super long, abt 3 yrs, since sec 4. They haven't changed a lot, haha! :) took sm photos today, will upload in my next post. N we wrote a pledge n got a whisper free gift pack. Inside gt a gillette shaver, hair conditioner, 8 pads, n sm more. Haha v nice right. really enjoyed myself today, seeing n meeting up with my old friends. Will meet again soon ok!

Happy hols to all! :D I'm enjoying mine a lot. :)

Friday, December 4, 2009,11:26 AM

OVER. :) haha ya exams are over. happy? not very. bcos didn't do v well for the final exams. got to get over it. fin accounting ppr was esp tough, law was alright, and mgt was e worst. still dont understand what those philosophers are trying to say! y cannot use layman language? they always speak in such a way tt there's a hidden meaning. aiyo i dont know la. haha.

gt 1 month of free time! during this time, will try to begin reading up on one of e modules which i had bought e text early this sem. principles of mktg. haha. n will enjoy myself watching tv, be a bookworm (not textbk, but storybk) and be happy. :)

exam results will be out 22 dec, 11am. hope it won't turn out too bad. xmas is coming too. no snow here though. n nally's coming hm for xmas. :D yay! n will meet w friends b4 sch starts AGAIN in jan!