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Friday, February 27, 2009,9:20 PM

its friday again! :)

chose not to work tmr, so i can sleep more haha. overtime today, a bit tired but otherwise good. heard the a level results r coming out soon, a bit nervous, n afraid i'll end up not doing well n can't qualify for a scholarship.

the week went alright, went to teach Alister also. :) its been a month since i started already, got my first pay for it too. strange how i get emotionally attached to the boy n his family, n feel a bit bad for accepting e money. i promise to work harder for him, so he'll get better n better faster.

Saturday, February 14, 2009,8:41 PM

glad and relieved that its saturday. :) bcos the week's been quite tiring. went to work today as well, but don't mind. most important still is saving up for future. :) working now, i realize more n more it isn't easy to earn an income, which leads me to be more cautious when spending. and of course it all comes back to education, to get sufficient qualifications and acquire knowledge, so that there'll be a job position readily available.

have been teaching Alister for a while now. i'm not very good as a teacher still, but i'll continue to learn, try my best so he can learn more. :) going to prepare rev w/s now, bye!

Thursday, February 12, 2009,8:22 PM

get to go home aft work today! :) haha no it isn't bcos i dont like to teach, but some days work's busy, n by evening, i feel drained.. been having more frequent headaches, but tts okay as well, bcos can eat panadol.

it feels a bit strange working beside people who have married or have kids already. then i'll wish i had one too, like them. sounds very funny :) but i guess most must wish to have their own family, a place where they start their own home, and strive hard at work bcos of it. there, those people have chosen and taken the path they want. though free to choose, some will always end up having a job tt wasn't their dream.

i hope to study, then do what i love. :) only then will i not find it a chore to work.

there's something i cannot understand, though it has been on my mind for quite a while. when two adults decide on a divorce, how could they agree to it when there're two children who'll be hurt by it? they'd have tried to make it work, but find it still can't work out. what has changed, from the time they took vows to stand by each other to the present? i can't understand fully.. e child who has seen and learnt of this. will he grow to be a stronger boy? does he feel sad in his heart? then what can i do to make him feel happier?

Friday, February 6, 2009,8:28 PM

new year's over.. its already feb! :)

though today's friday, will be working tmr, half-day. but other than tired, its pretty good working. :) the place doesn't feel as unfamiliar now, so's the work. getting to know my way around, though i still make a few mistakes now n then. there're colleagues too whom i've gotten to know better, n seem to have become part of my life, bcos i see them almost everyday. i don't mind staying a little longer, or missing my lunch to work, even if i don't get anything in return. i really hope for myself n others to see that i'm learning to be responsible.

i think i should treasure the time now, bcos i'll grow to miss them when its time to leave n put work away to get ready for school again. perhaps the pay's not very good, but the work i have has helped me grow, hopefully into a stronger person. even if it gets tiring, i think i still like doing it, haha. :)

saw Alister two times this week haha. :) slowly learning to be better in teaching, although there're a number of problems helping him understand words that aren't familiar to him. i feel happy being his 'teacher', though i don't really think of myself as one. like him, i feel i'm also a child, who hasn't grown up properly to take care of our loved ones.

jiayou, everyone who's working or studying!

Sunday, February 1, 2009,6:54 AM

i'm wishing for miracles.

to turn back time for a bit so that those upsetting words wouldn't have been spoken.

the situation had went back to square one, again. the eve of new year, my eldest sister started quarelling with my other sister. the words spoken were ugly, and hurtful. how could our family be the same again after it has been said?

i had a dream early this morning. in there, my two sisters were laughing and talking to each other. perhaps it was because i was wishing for that. but it isn't possible. and i have no idea what i can do.

on another note, i went out in search of children storybooks and assessment books yesterday, and managed to find them. :) elister's only turning 6 this year, starting primary one, n i'm not sure he'll be able to read the simple books i borrowed. but never mind if he can't, then i'll read it to him if there's time. :)

bought 4 assessment books yesterday, after standing in front of the shelves of popular and comparing which was better. there were so many! :) i have to think of effective teaching methods today.

work's still pretty much the same. i'll adjusting to it better now, to do my best but think of it only as a job, so that i won't worry abt things related to work after work. good for me, haha. :)

will be teaching tuition after work every mon and wed, until 845. a bit tired by the end, but i'll manage, n be optimistic abt it. :)